After an eventful, busy month, and not much happening in the TTC department (Or so I thought)
I caved, tested and low and behold the faintest of faint second line came up. We got our BFP.
We immediately went into plan mode, when will we get a new car, how much do we need to save, we need to change our budget to accommodate.. For the first time ever I stopped, and I slowed down, took a deep breath, and just enjoyed the moment.
I watched 'Time Travellers Wife" with my mother over the weekend, *WARNING SPOILER ALERT*
She has recurring miscarriages, anyway without giving too much away she ends up pregnant again and she says to him "We're not going to fight anymore.We're not even getting excited, if stress is what's causing the traveling then we should give this baby the most serene gestation on the planet"
I kind of feel like that, I know last time, everytime I thought so much as a bad thought I felt like I would be punished for feeling that way, or thinking those thoughts. I know there is nothing I can do to prevent miscarrying, but I would like to FEEL like I can.
So I am going to try to give this baby the most serene gestation on the planet. I am not going to bed rest and stop my life. But no fights, no pushing myself to the limit before I rest
I do think I am already too excited. But I can't not be. This is my dream.
